Grim

I'm in town for long
But I'm not coming home at all.
Cold wisps of air take me away
Far far away.
Where only truth exists
and everything is dead and buried.
But multiple truths make up lies,
one truth set against the other and that one against another.

The dust piles up in every corner
of this desert.
Shavings and wastes of everything
that I have believed in.
I walk and never turn back,
to the house so dimly lit.
Where the one awaits me
searches my face in the shadows
of where I used to linger.

The truth faded
into shades of uncertainties.
Grim and dead.

Adore

Trust and find
the nobility of his mind
the nobility of his life
and of his love.
Find
the nobility of truths
he does not deny.


Believe and see
the adornment he has for thee.
Looking to great
the beauty that is your face.
Like a swift sunrise
over hilltops and bree.
Every course of skin
lies stories of care.
It bares no shame
no shadow of uncertainty.


Like the tales of old says
it stays true-
that love comes but once.
And come it has,
for your descent
and in your fall
I rise,
and fall deeper we eill.
Like the seed
that digs deep
should grow.

Verses

I am yours
forever do
love you.
You are always
on my mind
I see you clear
speaking words
truth laid bare.
Always there
on the run
to where
you always are.
Finding where
my heart races far.
To reach my love
and hold her close
feel her arms
and her breath.
And she warms
my skin, lost to the cold
of winter's harm.
She is the sun
and the fall
and its breeze.
My longing
would never seize.
I am far
from my life's end
yet so close
to its deserved glory.
Receiving grace,
and giving care.
Caring it shall be
until the end
of me.
Loving it is named.
It is
but living
with a purpose
in these long verses.

Rifting Rafts

no matter how hard they try
no matter what they say
no matter what they make you feel
no matter what they try to prove
they can never take you away.

whatever you do
whatever you make me feel
whatever the pain
i'll love you the same.

some may hurt
but never trully understand.
the way i feel for you
is so much more
than what they could comprehend.

this is how i feel.
and no one else
could ever feel the same.
i love you more
than anyone else could ever dream of.
this is true, i know
they could curse me
they could think
of the worst things of me
but this will never change:
my love.

they will say
they love you more
and that they are better than i am,
the latter could be true
but never that first part
i have the bigger heart
filled up by you.

i will pay whatever cost
just to keep you mine
and fight any fight.
i will live loving you
and die just the same.
i will have
every bit of the pain
that this love shares
and still love you more
than this heart could ever bear.

When the storm comes
and the shit falls
I'd still be there.
When everything has been said
and all that you feel has been shaken
know that I'd still love you.
And when you get used to all of this
and start thirsting for more of something else,
I'll give you more.
I'll never quit.
I'll never stay down
for so long
when my legs fails to keep me up.
I'll rely on the facts,
on the reality of your love.
I'll prove
once again
that I love you.
And I'll do it a million times over
just to keep you
just to make you happy.

Love Her

When you find that girl
who you know
you do love,
and you love her deeply,
make her yours.
Don't let her pass you by.
Because it takes a lifetime
to fall for someone,
and there's no one else
in this world
- not one person,
like her.


I wrote this about more than a year ago. I told myself that I should be man enough to tell a girl that I love her only when I meant it.And after months I wrote this, I did. I've proven to myself that I am man enough to tell someone something that I know would make me vulnerable as hell. And I am positive that I did not make a mistake. I know that if I hadn't told that to this girl, my life would find its way to certain tragedy. And now that she knows that I love her, and that I know she loves me back, our fates have been twined. Only to be led to where God takes us from here.

All this time growing up taught me a lot of things. A lot of hurt, a lot of laughs, a lot of tears due to the latter reasons. I've learned so much about love, and what it can do, and what it feels like, and what it is capable of. And I know that that is exactly what I have found in Teng.
And a lot of people who'd read this would think "That's just to cheesy." or "He doesn't know what he's talking about." or maybe even "This dude's gay to say all this.". But if this, what I am saying here, is the truth, then why should it not be said? And surely, if any man(in his right mind) who finds love to the degree of how I see it and experience it he'd say the same thing too.

I have found the girl I talked about the poem above. And I do intend to keep her for as long as she'll have me. I have lived up to now still finding myself wherever she is. Because my place is with her. And I do love her.

J.A.D.D.

What Love Does

You set my heart on fire
and say words
that sound like music from a lyre.
You take every breath I take away
leading them not astray.
But straight into your arms
Where there is only love
no harm.
And I find comfort
your love never falls short.

You give me love
and care
and everything
that makes the world fair.
You take my love
and everything I give
and with it you choose to live
with me
and with all days
my heart my soul
deeply prays
you'd stay.

I'll forever love
until there's breath for you to take
in these lungs.
And with each breath drawn,
I'll sing you this song
this melody of being free
despite being a captive of love.
Everything is pure.
A sinful life
you have cured.

Roselle

Have you ever wondered
about love? About
its truth? About what it
really feels like?
I have. And I have went
and found it.
In the palm of your
hands. In the vault
of your beating heart.
I have felt it,
flowing out
and coming in.
I have given it
and choose to live
giving it.
To you.
Who gave me answers.
Who is the solution
against the biggest monsters
in life that I will face.
I was lost
and you gave me a place
where I can find peace
again and again.
Eliminating every trace
of fear and pain,
of moments of shame.
Giving me a reason
to live. Air
to breathe.

Have you ever wondered
about peace? About
a peace that lasts?
With no worries.
Just safety.
I have. In your love
I have it. Its warmth
always so inviting.
Making me come back
for more.
Just like our quivering
breaths after we kiss.
Letting us know
we want more.
More of this love.
More of this peace.
Making me want you
even more.

Found

I have found depth

in the place I thought I'd never live to see.

I found it in those eyes

that seem to pierce my soul.

I found it in that heart

that loves a thousand fold.

I found it

in those caring arms

that took me in.

That chose to love me.

Speak

Speak the words.
I seek your face.
Finding my place
in torn worlds.
Let your love
surround me
and save me
from the pain
from the bitterness.
Create a resounding love
that echoes on
until the end of time
And I forever will
hold you close
near the deep chambers of my heart.
Wake me
from my deep slumber.
Open my eyes.
Give me warmth
of your love.
And speak the words
I've waited my whole life to hear
Show the face
that holds the beauty
of a thousand goddesses.
Always pure,
always divine.
My blood runs
on it's course
on its way
to it's purpose.
To love
and never stop.
To care
and always hope.

What Is It?

What is love
without it's sacrifices?
It's promises to be kept?
It's rules and beliefs?
What is it
without giving more than taking?
What is it
but to do anything just to make the other happy?
Or feel appreciated
despite
his or her own imperfections?
What is love
but to care for,
and never do anything to hurt
the one you say you love?
What is love
without selflessness?
What is it
that makes you content?
What is it
you value the most?
What is it
that matters to you more?
Feelings made felt?
Appearance?
What is to love?
Than to give up
more of yourself,
more of your pride,
your dignity
just so you can give the one you love
what he or she truly deserves?
What is it?

I'm Still Here

I'm still here,
loving you so dear.
Remembering the day
I first saw you.
Remembering the way
I felt when I found out I loved you.

Let me fall for you
my love,
over and over again.
Like the crashing waves coming in.
I'll still be here
waiting for everything to begin.

I'll give
every ounce of blood
every drip of sweat
every pint of shame
every bit of my strength
for you.
But only for you.
I'll live the lengths
of everyday
giving you a glimpse
of what we had
and what I want us to have.

Keep me here,
it is where I want to be.
For the rest of my days.
Your love is the only love
I would ever long for.
Your face
the only one I want to see.
Your hands are the only ones
I'll hold on to so dearly.

I'll be what you need,
I'll be what everyone cannot be.

There are many things
I have yet to say,
many things
I have yet to do.
Teach me the ways of your heart.
Show me the ways of your mind.
Lead me to where your soul resides.
Show me where the pain hides
and let me be the one
to keep you going,
keep you living,
fighting,
loving.

Hurt, Fight, Love.

The face that haunts my soul.
The fact that stops my breath short.
The one who distorts love,
belittles my dignity,
my reason
and my existence.
Washes off
every memory I have planted.
And vanquishes
memories of tomorrow's happiness.


It plays over
and over again.
That night
that set my heart ablaze.
When everything seemed so right,
turned wrong.
By this joke of a man.
Cowardly, yet wise.
Evil lurks in his veins.
Wanting to end
the greatest good
of what my life could ever have.


Destroying as he goes,
he never stops.
He's always there,
where I used to be.
Taking my own throne.
Taking the very reason
of my being.


I'll fight,
til there's nothing left
to fight for.
No, not even then
will I stop loving.
For it is the only thing
that I know how to do.
And she is the only person,
I could ever love,
could ever hold in these arms of mine
and call my own.


I'll give and die.
Wanting no less than her joy.
Wanting to be the reason,
wanting to be the one to sacrifice
everything that I hold dear.
She'll have me
always.

In For A Fight

I hold my heart
in my hands.
I'll show it to the world
and then I'll show them you.
I'll tell them
"The two are the same.
One
is much a part of me as the other.
Take my heart away,
and I'd still breathe.
Take her away
and my heart will have no use."

I'll go through all the pain,
drop every tear,
live every agonizing second,
every haunting day,
and each lasting hour
fighting for you, my love.

Once

I walk
in a path of evergreen.
Not believing what I have seen.


The air,
that light breeze.
The light
passing in
and out
of the trees above.
Reminding me of the light
I saw in your eyes.


Birds are singing
what seems to be a single tune.
My ears
clinging on
to every note
and every pause.
They're singing with a cause.
Again, reminding me of you
speaking words of love.
Sounding right and true.


Belief,
that everything will come out pure.
As coal does going through flames
before giving out that glow.
That inner glow
and incinerating passion.
That desire
for one's longing arms,
longing for the safety
and the love it brings,
once again.
Once more.
Feeling in,
reaching out.
Holding on
for all it's worth.
Arms out,
reaching,
searching for you
in pitch black darkness.
Searching for that light
that glows in your heart.

Dreams

In my dreams you'll stay.
In a house filled with boxes
of good memories.
But in the basement,
along with the furnace,
dust,
insects and webs,
lies the pain.
The haunting events
and words and such.
A poorly lit room
by the light of my own tears.
No truth lies there,
except the fact that you left.
And I am here alone.
Pondering, looking for all reasons why,
you sang with me
but couldn't sing hallelujah.
All those late nights,
all those days.
I never really had you.

So Much More

Don't go on
wasting life.

Life is so much more
than what it was meant for.
Life is so much more
than booze,
than parties,
than fights,
than suffering,
than crying,
than washing ashore.

Your Absence

Without you
life would go on.
The birds will fly,
songs will be sung,
cars will pass me by,
darting eyes will be shun.


Hairs would turn gray,
Time will pass
and I will watch all the while.

Children will still play,

people will continue to live.

But without you
I will surely die.
I'll suffer life,
suffer each breath
in the darkness
of your absence.

Fall Again

I've been bent
I've been broken.
I've been everything but heaven-sent.
I've been dumb
I've been selfish
I've been nothing but numb
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
For every wrong act,
for everything I lack.
I've been blind
I've been stupid.
I don't want to be left behind.
Because of my incompetence.
Because of my hypocricy.
I'll get up form this mess.
And make you fall again.

Ready

I am ready to be ugly.
I am ready to wrinkle.
I am ready to rot.
I am ready to wither.
But after all, I will never be forgot.